Today we're highlighting HantaVee, a Malagasy-European studying in the US, who believes a woman can erase the act of intercourse out of her mind and become re-virginized. If you want to tell your story, go to our submission form. You can find all our V-Card Diaries here. Tell us about yourself:
I am a 21 year old Malagasy-European, studying in the U.S who loves politics, the arts and Rihanna. I'm currently in the Wild Wild West, more specifically in the state of Texas.
How do you define virginity?
I look at my private hole, and if it has been entered by anyone else's privates, I consider that losing my virginity. However, it is both a mental and physical thing. Because we are not just animals, our human minds control a lot of what we believe and how things are conceived. I believe a woman can erase the act of intercourse out of her mind, and make herself a new virgin if she chooses to.
Tell us your story:
There are stories of rape, and I believe mine happens to be a mild example of one. I lost my virginity in a bathroom stall to a high school senior when I was just 14. I went in the stall with him thinking we were going to kiss and what have you, but as things heated up I wasn't fully prepared for his privates entering mine. When he stripped me down, he told me to sit, and as he pressed me down on him, I told him it hurt. He told me to hush, and that it's supposed to hurt.
Since then, I've had a terrible view on how sex was supposed to be enjoyed. I had an even more screwed up view on how I was compared to my virgin friends, how they seemed better than me because they hadn't "given it up yet." I feel like I didn't have a choice in my V-card, so I resented my non-virginity, and because it was something "that you could never get back" I continued my "unpure" sexuality, since it was already lost anyway.