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V-Card Diaries: Nikki "After this experience, I decided to leave my Jehovah's Witness religion"

Today we're highlighting Nikki in Miami, who is 24 and used to make her Barbie dolls have sex with each other. If you want to tell your story, go to our submission form. You can find all our V-Card Diaries here. Tell us about yourself:

I am a heterosexual 24-year-old female in Miami, Florida. I am an artist/designer and dancer.

How do you define virginity?

I have defined it traditionally. A person who has not had any sexual experience. But I'm excited to get my perspective totally flipped by this film.

Tell us your story

I was raised a Jehovah's Witness. And as such premarital sex was forbidden. But ever since I was a young girl I had a feeling I was not going to be able to live up to these standards. I was always very sexually aroused as a child (making my barbie dolls have sex, drawing my own sex scenes, all before the age of 10) The first time I had "sex" was at age 14. It was with my 18-year-old boyfriend. He penetrated me but I don't think he broke my hymen because I never bled I think because he wasn't fully erect, but I still considered it losing my virginity.

It was a miserable experience. I had weighty feelings of guilt and regret. But I believe it was a blessing in disguise because after this experience I decided to leave the religion. And it was probably the best life decision I have ever made.